The Nightmare
                   An Excerpt from my diary of 4/27/04

                   Two Nights ago I had a terrible nightmare.
                   I haven't had an actual nightmare, at least one that actually scared me, since I was very young.
                   But in This one, I was at this hospital, or some building like one, it was night time and there was these things, which
                   we referred to as steel bats, that flew around in a circular motion.
                   They were Black colored and about a foot, or so wide.
                   But When They flew, they looked like round black disc's.
                   And They would cut right through almost anything.
                   In the Nightmare they seemed to actually eat metal and they would cut right through metal doors.
                   Anything Less dense was even easier for them to cut through.
                   And any Flesh was like a red flag to a bull to them, they would cut up a person standing, like it was nothing.
                   I Remember walking though this one hall and then hearing this buzzing noise and these cabinets began to shake
                   where the noise was coming from.
                   I Knew it was them and they were starting to awake.
                   The Sound was almost like a horde of little circular power saws.
                   I Walked quickly outside and checked out two cars that were there, but they had been tampered with, or even destroyed,
                   by these things I thought.
                   There was not much, if any of a town and I had to find some shelter.
                   I Ran back inside another part of this hospital and heard these things on their way towards me.
                   I Frantically ran from room to room, through hall ways and closing every metal door there was.
                   I could Hear these things cutting through the doors, as if cutting through butter with a surgical blade.
                   Like it would have made a difference, I remember trying to lock or latch some of the doors, but most I had not the time
                   and had to run.
                    I haven't had a Nightmare that made me feel so helpless and afraid, since I was very young.
                   And even Then, I was able to control the nightmares.

                   I was Asleep on the couch at night, when I had this nightmare.
                   When I Awoke, all the lights and TV were out, but something was flashing, almost like a flash light.
                   I Found it to be something in my head causing the flashes.
                   But the Amazing part is, that I could actually see around the room a little, when this light flashed.

                   I hadn't even watched anything crazy on TV lately and have not been able to read anything lengthily for many years now,
                   so I did not read anything crazy either.
                   And I Rarely have any contact with anyone outside of those here and that includes on the phone and internet.
                   So I did not Hear, or talk about anything crazy, that would have provoked this nightmare.
                   The only Thing I can think of, is the feelings of the nightmare itself.
                   Immense Feelings of desperation and hopelessness.
                   Feelings of great danger, which I was trying desperately to get away from.
                   There were no other TVs, radios, or anything else that was making any sounds, in fact everyone was sleeping.
                   So I have no Idea of where these awful sounds came from, must have been fabricated by my brain.

                   Whatever the true Meaning, or reason to this nightmare, if any, it did leave me feeling more afraid to die now!
                   I Got this real strange feeling that I cannot shake, that these things were a part of death itself.

                   I just had another thought.
                   With this severe Arthritis and all the pain it causes, this may be some reason for the nightmare of these flying steel bats.
                   They would cut right through a person, cutting their limbs and flesh and maybe the arthritis pain, especially in the joints,
                   had caused that aspect of the dream.
                   The Desperation and despair parts are simple to figure out, because that has been my life these past few years!